MY FIRST BIRTHDAY WITHOUT MOM PART 2

Hmmm, people must have been praying because I said today would suck and it did NOT. Thank you everyone for prayers and the non "silence"! I had so many Birthday wishes today, it was a very nice day. The day tried to start out bad but it sure did change. I have so many good people in my life.

I have said previously that I am getting involved with raising money for PC. I have made some contacts and you will see more inoformation so please keep checking in to see what is happening.

If you are face book you saw some links I posted. Well, via what I posted I need to say THANK YOU so much to the BOUNCIN BUCKEYES (with a little IRISH twist), these girls are walking the PURPLE STRIDE this Saturday for Pancreatic Cancer. Thank you so much!

Here is the local affiliate link (Central Ohio) http://www.pancan.org/section_get_involved/volunteer/affiliate_details.php?id=77
Check it out and go to the online store and get your "purple" gear for November, PC Awareness Month. Post this link to your favorites and keep checking.

The end of my first birthday without mom has ended extremely well thanks to all of you. I wish I could list eveyone and how but that would be way long. You all know who you are so thanks again so much.

Love,
Ang

JOYCE AND JOSEPH THANKS

From my cousin Melody

I just wanted to share what my cousin Melody wrote on facebook it was so nice!

And...so now..the realization sets in,......never knowing just how MUCh she meat to you, and how much life means to any of us....nor how much living she did, and the lives she touched..untill she 's no longer there... look up, at the sky on a star-filled night, you will see ONE star just a little brighter..blinking a... litte softer... and think..."I bet mom talked God into letting HER light that star tonight! Just for me....... and Connie could do it too..!
Love to you all..

Gotta go now and look for that star!

MY FIRST BIRTHDAY WITHOUT MOM

Well, all I can say is it will suck and of course it will, I said it would! 44 years of birthdays and she has been present in some fashion. I have either heard her tell me Happy Birthday over the phone or in person, give me a hug or send me a card, and this year there will be SILENCE. So dont call or text me to say Happy Birthday, instead, just be silent for a moment and remember my mom.

Thanks,
Ang

CONNIE AMOS - Celebration of Life Sept 4th, 2010

Moms celebration of life was a very nice event, with everything from crying to singing to eating to visiting to talking and a late night! I believe this was a "must see" event. I have so many people to thank so where do I begin?

Well, to ALL the many people who came and took time out to remember my mom we thank you! We also thank you for all the food that you brought...WOW....mom would have been happy. Our family and friends sure can cook!

There sure are lots to thank for the help in putting this together! First and foremost is Dad and Paige ( well Dad just a little more as she is only a teen haha ), they both helped with all the cleaning, yard work and Dad well he was the food and pop and all the "running" around details. Paige if you are reading this you are probably thinking I am "dogging" you by my comment BUT just know this you WERE a BIG help and I love you!

Now there is Tracy she was a big help with some very important details flowers and memorial leaflet. She made an awesome leaflet that I tried to post on here but I can not but here is what the poem said:

God saw you getting tired
and a cure was not to be
so he put his arms around you
and whispered,
“Come to Me”

With tearful eyes we watched you
and saw you pass away
and although we love you dearly
we could not make you stay.

A Golden heart stopped beating
hard working hands at rest.
God broke our hearts to prove to us
he only takes the best

Now, if that doesnt make you cry I dont know what will. That poem was the MOST perfect poem and totally describes these past months. Tracy THANKS AGAIN! Now she also came up the weekend before and helped me in the gardens and after all the weeding she did, she realized 2 things: ONE - it needed more color and TWO - she got into some poison ivy or oak. As for the needed color, she contacted the Marlene, from Fruits of Life (this is the woman mom got most of her flowers from) and this woman set us up big time with some very nice potting arrangements, thanks MARLENE. Now for the poison ivy/oak well it was a real pain for Tracy but I think she finally got the right medicine and is should be going away now. Sorry for all that Tracy, but next year stay AWAY from the shed!

There are probably more I am missing and I am sorry but the last people I need to thank are the ones that cleaned up my kitchen! I remember walking in the door looking at everything and then saying wow yuck now way not now and walked back out. But the next time I walked in BAM it was clean so thanks and I do know one person who was doing stuff inside was Danielle so thank you so much Danielle it was nice for you to keep up on that stuff. I know others helped her like Carrie and Paula and I thank you guys. It was a great relief not to have to go to bed worrying about all that. I love you all.

There is more I would like to say, but I wanted to get on here and tell ALL of you thanks and it was a great special day on Saturday, thanks to so many people! I love you all and will talk again soon.

WOW IT IS HARD TO GET BACK ON HERE!!!

I need to do this....... this is me telling myself this so you dont have to read lol

I miss my Mom, I want her back! There is no new normal, because she is gone so how can things be "normal"? Everything in this house, in this yard everywhere reminds me of her. You should have seen me try to clean her room the first time or this weekend, getting Paiges Sr pictures, Mom was supposed to be there. Tomorrow is Paige's first day of her Sr year, where is my Mom? It is not fair and we will never understand and that just sucks.

Ok, thanks for reading my venting. I just thought...this is alot cheaper than therapy, I am glad I am back on here. I hope people will read.

We are all starting or have started back into life. Dad is always busy running or doing something UNTIL 6pm, then news and dinner. He is such a good guy and I dont give him enough credit. He is on top of groceries, stuff we need, unloading the dishwasher and other odds and ends. He thinks like Mom but so do all of us!!

Paige has been just working a lot since its Summer but school starts tomorrow. She told me her good thing out of all this is that she feels more determined. Her and Grandma talked and Mom wanted her to fullfill her dreams and Paige feels like Grandma is right there for her and she is on a mission for what she wants to do.

MOMS MEMORIAL - For any of you reading I hope you know about the Celebration of Life we are having for mom. See I called it Memorial but its supposed to be celebration of life. Seriously, what the hell do you call it GEE! SATURDAY SEPT 4 be here at 1pm. If you need directions or whatever send me a message. If you can not be here and want to say something write it down and get it to me as we will have it displayed and/or be reading it throughout the day.

Now, that I am back on here I wanted to let you know about my mission. That would be raising money for PC (pancreatic cancer). I want to thank Jeannie from the Over My Head place for suggesting I do this! Jeannie, you just might see something on the news lol.

Seriously, I want you all to know that I am going to something to help raise awareness and money for PC. All you hear about is other cancers so why not PC? I had a friend tell me that when you say PC everyone says wow that is the worst cancer to get. So why not do something, even if it is little, about it? Anyone on here reading knows that this is something I could do, so I need you to pray, suggest and offer any ideas that could help! There will be more information regarding this at a time when I have more information and/or whatever.

I want to take a moment and thank you and others for ALL your comments, flowers, cards, donations, kind words, texts and just all around support. You do not know how much it is all appreciated. I hope to see you all on the 4th of Sept.

Love Ang