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I need to do this....... this is me telling myself this so you dont have to read lol
I miss my Mom, I want her back! There is no new normal, because she is gone so how can things be "normal"? Everything in this house, in this yard everywhere reminds me of her. You should have seen me try to clean her room the first time or this weekend, getting Paiges Sr pictures, Mom was supposed to be there. Tomorrow is Paige's first day of her Sr year, where is my Mom? It is not fair and we will never understand and that just sucks.
Ok, thanks for reading my venting. I just thought...this is alot cheaper than therapy, I am glad I am back on here. I hope people will read.
We are all starting or have started back into life. Dad is always busy running or doing something UNTIL 6pm, then news and dinner. He is such a good guy and I dont give him enough credit. He is on top of groceries, stuff we need, unloading the dishwasher and other odds and ends. He thinks like Mom but so do all of us!!
Paige has been just working a lot since its Summer but school starts tomorrow. She told me her good thing out of all this is that she feels more determined. Her and Grandma talked and Mom wanted her to fullfill her dreams and Paige feels like Grandma is right there for her and she is on a mission for what she wants to do.
MOMS MEMORIAL - For any of you reading I hope you know about the Celebration of Life we are having for mom. See I called it Memorial but its supposed to be celebration of life. Seriously, what the hell do you call it GEE! SATURDAY SEPT 4 be here at 1pm. If you need directions or whatever send me a message. If you can not be here and want to say something write it down and get it to me as we will have it displayed and/or be reading it throughout the day.
Now, that I am back on here I wanted to let you know about my mission. That would be raising money for PC (pancreatic cancer). I want to thank Jeannie from the Over My Head place for suggesting I do this! Jeannie, you just might see something on the news lol.
Seriously, I want you all to know that I am going to something to help raise awareness and money for PC. All you hear about is other cancers so why not PC? I had a friend tell me that when you say PC everyone says wow that is the worst cancer to get. So why not do something, even if it is little, about it? Anyone on here reading knows that this is something I could do, so I need you to pray, suggest and offer any ideas that could help! There will be more information regarding this at a time when I have more information and/or whatever.
I want to take a moment and thank you and others for ALL your comments, flowers, cards, donations, kind words, texts and just all around support. You do not know how much it is all appreciated. I hope to see you all on the 4th of Sept.
Love Ang
Ang, I am glad that you are back on with an update of how you are doing. I can honestly say that I know how you are feeling, Honey. It seems odd that life goes on while we are grieving...some how it just doesn't seem fair. Our love is wrapped up in our grief and it is a very natural part of the healing process. I say process in a very real way. It is a process.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad that Paige is holding on to the things that she and her Grandma planned for her. Your mom will forever be a part of her life. When I think of Jude and the fact that his Gramps never knew him, it breaks my heart. I have to believe that Tom sees and is so proud of all NINE of our grandchildren. They are all so awesome!!
Your mom was such a giving, loving person. She was sure of many things; but, most importantly she was sure of a God that loved her. How awesome is that??
Love you sweetie.
Aunt Sharon