All is good

I just got back from Carries wish I could still be there. EVAN you are the BOMB for giving up your bed! Thank you so much. I slept all thru each night and slept in which was nice.

I am sure Carrie will get the pictures to me to post or Carrie now you know my password and such so feel free to go ahead and post all those "good" pictures. It was a blast to go to the pool then go carts then putt putt then batting cages then out to eat wow full weekend.

I feel bad today is Fathers Day and although I got home in enough time to make him a good dinner, it just wasnt "Fathers Day". I love you Dad and you know that I wish I could give you the one the one thing that you want :(

Mom is doing ok no better no worse. I do know that she doesnt want to be alone but would you if you were in her shoes? She told me the worst is in the morning not having dad there or meaning if she wakes up and he is gone doing whatever. So I reminded her that someone would be there every morning when she wakes up no matter what!

Mom and I had a good conversation today, I cant explain it but it was good. The one thing I know thru all this is that we can be open and honest and say what we feel, which really I am not good at, but something like this brings out a different something in people its hard to explain. I do know one thing mom is open to questions or whatever, but of course she still is Connie so it will all be on her own her own "terms" lol. But if any of you want my opinion, ask her talk to her dont hold back dont be afraid this ALL has to be out in the open. Aside from Devine Intervention her time is limited so get what you need from her and her from you. I hope that makes sense.

As I said previously, a week from this Monday we see the Oncologist and then the schedule should be set at that point, for chemo. We dont know how or if the chemo will affect her, again another unanswered question. But until then mom is going to what she wants to when she wants to do it. It is just one day at a time.

BTW as for recouping from surgery she is doing well, now I can not get her to bend over and touch her toes but she is very mobile which is great. She told me today that is why she got out of bed the next day and in the hospital she did not want any help because she didnt want to not be able to get around. She is doing good in that area its just the tiredness-lack of energy she is dealing with. But Mom is tough, although can you believe she doesnt thing she is tough? She told me that today and I had to say "what are kidding me"?

I also believe that God is in control in this whole thing. I cant explain its to detailed but He has already spared her pain and is giving her strength to move forward. It really is the rest of us who need to hold onto His strength thru all this!

Again mom, if you are reading this I love you and I am here for whatever as we ALL are so just let us know what you need or dont need. Mom you are great person and I hate to see you go thru this but you know I really believe no matter what or how GOD will get the glory from ALL of this someway, somehow, and sometime.

I love you mom and all of you reading!
Ang