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As my cousin explained we will now begin a "new normal". I dont want a new normal but this is the way it has to be. She also told me it is not the situation it is how we react to the situation that will get us thru. Jen, you are a great lady with some very wise words. I cant say enough about how much your phone call and comments meant to me, especially the insight regarding the baseball bat!
I guess my first new normal was a very good night sleep. Paige and I slept in moms bed and laid there for a long time just talking, which we really have not done in awhile. We did not get up until 12:30 and probably would not have gotten up then but Alan came in and woke us up. But that is what Alan does, wakes everyone up lol.
I am sitting here wondering what to do with myself now. I have that feeling you have afer you have planned and worked for a big event and the event is over and now what do you do? One thing I am going to continue to do is post on here. This will be cheaper than paying a therapist lol. So I hope I dont bore you all :)
One thing that is kinda bothering me is that we are not having a funeral/memorial. Not really a formal funeral but a memorial for mom. She did not want one but I had told her that a memorial would not be for her its for the living. We decided then that we would have a "living memorial" but as you know things did not work out that way. I would love to gather with family and friends and visit and talk about mom. I guess its kind of like a closure and a celebration to whole thing. Maybe I will work on Dad about this.
I have not mentioned Alan and Dad but just to let you know they both are doing ok as usual they are out running around doing errands or whatever.
Thanks for all your comments on here I love reading them keep them coming. Love and appreciate all your support and love!!
Connie was a very special person to us. We will always remember her. Memories of the great times we had will be thought about and talked about for our lifetime. The reality of this situation hasn't hit home yet, but we know she is definitely in a better place. Our thoughts and prayers are with all of you, you are our family. We love you sooo much. Now, I'm just waiting for my sign from Connie.
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love all of you,
Penny
I wanted to share this with all of you. It has brought me comfort and I pray it does the same for you all. As you may or may not know, my friend Kimi, her son and I had begun a fast for Aunt Connie and Kimi's sister, Wendy. We were believing for a complete healing for both of them. Well, God answered our prayers, just not the way we had intended. They both passed within 4 hours of each other. Wendy literally passed just minutes after the mark of the end of our fast. Even though this was not what we wanted, we have to know they are in a much better place. I pray that God, in all of His wisdom, allows these two remarkable women to meet. I have know doubt they would just love each other, not to mention keep everyone on their toes. At the time of starting the fast we knew we were coming back to visit Wendy on August 2. I had read ahead in my daily devotional, Grace for the Moment, to the devotional for August 2. I was so moved by the words. Now going back and reading it, I know God gave us these words as a comfort.
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He restores my soul; He leads me in the paths of righteousness for His name's sake. Psalm 23:3
It's hard to see things grow old. The town in which I grew up is growing old...Some of the buildings are boarded up. Some of the houses are torn down...The old movie house where I took my dates has "For Sale" on the marquee...
I wish I could make it all new again. I wish I could blow the dust off the streets...but I can't.
I can't. But God can. "He restores my soul." He doesn't camouflage the old; he restores the new. The Master Builder will pull out the original plan and restore it. He will restore the vigor. He will restore the energy. He will restore the hope. He will restore the soul.
Because I also know the significance, with Aunt Connie's cancer, of the 8th day of the month I also read the devotional for August 8. Again, I really found comfort in this. I pray you do as well.
August 8 ~ Safe to Believe
When Jesus was raised from the dead, it was a signal of the end of death-as-the-end. Romans 6:3-6
Don't you love that sentence? "It was the signal of the end of death-as-the-end." The resurrection is an exploding flare announcing to all sincere seekers that it is safe to believe. Safe to believe in ultimate justice. Safe to believe in eternal bodies. Save to believe in heaven as our estate and earth as its porch. Safe to believe in a time when questions won't keep us awake and pain won't keep us down. Safe to believe in open graves and endless days and genuine praise.
Because we can accept the resurrection story, it is safe to accept the rest of the story.
I love you all so much. I am so thankful we are family! My prayers are for God, the great comforter, will bring you the peace only He can bring.
Michelle
PS Just an interesting side note. We fasted for 7 weeks...7 is the number of completion!
As long as I have life and breath, "Aunt" Connie will live on in my heart and soul. She touched me ever so deeply-far out of proportion to the relatively little time we spent together. Those times are forever locked away as treasured and precious memories. Safe at home in the arms of Jesus, I hope now she knows how much I truly love her. Living so far away and being dependent on my job, I did not get to see Connie these last days or help the family. I envy those who got to do that. This sweet, beautiful gal lived to serve her family and her Lord. She is now a member of that heavenly band who cheers us earthly pilgrims on our way, awaiting to welcome us to the Celestial City. She lived her life well and to the fullest-may the same be said of us all.
ReplyDeleteHello all, this is the Millers, just wanted to let you know our thought and our heart goes out to you all. I know how you feel, I've been through this before. I really liked Connie, she was a great person, lots of fun and I liked being around her.It will be a hard thing to get through, but time will heal, and she is in a better place now . She is probably decorating and planting flowers up there already.I do know she is watching over everyone and some day you will be with her again. We all Love you guys God Bless and Take Care,Love Denise, Cliff,Shawn and Wilma. Call if you want to talk....
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