I was just so mad during my last post but I/we have every right to be when we see this happening to someone we love. I just think about the punk who is bad and gets shot dead with absolutely no suffering then I think about my mom and her suffering and I do not see any fairness.
After I had my angry bought I just went upstairs and crawled in bed with mom and I read a little bit but then just grabbed her hand and held it and fell asleep. I woke up later and Paula and Brian had brought dinner, thanks guys! I ate then went right back up and held moms hand and slept until about 10 this evening!
Now I am thinking about who will be there for me when I am angry, sad, scared, happy or whatever. Mom has always been there for me thru the good and the bad. She is the one person who understood me and was someone I could always go to and I could always depend on her! That is soon to be gone, oh man what will I do, how hard is this going to be to loose my mom? For now it is just scary to even think about.
Angela and all, we continue to pray that Gods peace and love will comfort you. I have a dear friend that just lost a brother to this same cancer and oh how sad to endure this heartache!! I have asked for prayer request for all of you. I pray for a peaceful jurney for Connie and that Gods mercy will make make this less heartbreaking for Lee, Allen, Paige, You and the rest of the people who LOVE Connie!! I will continue to read your blog and pray for you all. Love Sharon C.
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